what the hell?

Honesty, loyalty, friends and then wealth.

I had this commented out. I decided I'd rather not. I guess I'm going to have to implement private entries or something.

3:18AM edit:
I mean I already understood, "friends" so why make such a big deal about it afterwards?

Shit, okay big fuck up on my part. Hindsight is 20/20 and I wish I could take what happened back now but I'm an idiot. I'm weirded out by this whole experience. Christ, I didn't want any long term commitment, hell I'm probably leaving Irvine in 4 months. Perhaps using the phrase "date" was too strong of a word, in the 1800s, but I guess I learned my lesson. Interest apparently means some kind of phase into seriousness. Lesson learned. Lesson learned.

First saying you didn't want to get serious, fine I didn't want it to be serious. Then you flake for us to hang-out. And the whole not bothering to make eye contact with me at all and then you having to reiterate something along the lines of "not interested." I GOT IT THE FIRST TIME. Goddamn, talk about being weirded out.

I'm not leaving this experience angry or hateful. It's just kind of sad actually. I'm not going to give her any stupid silent treatment because I refuse to be the one responsible for this whole mess. I'm glad you thought it would be nice to tell that you didn't want to lead me on but you can't really lead anyone who's lost interest already and is just trying to save the situation from becoming awkward, which it already is.

Added bonus for telling me not to get distracted too easily when I'm studying for my midterm and then throwing down drama 5 minutes later.

Also I'm really starting to find it more and more difficult to just head out to CA events. I mean lately it's just been really bad in terms of what I see around me. Some people are real bitches. I only stay because of the people who are actually nice decent people are in the organization

Watched a couple of Twilight Zone episodes (the original series) and have to say that some of them are real hit and misses. I suppose for their time they were great but some of them are just really bland.

One of the ones I watched was one that's constantly parodied or copied is the episode called, "Time Enough At Last." It is about a man who loves to read but does not have anytime for it until ultimately the place he is living gets hit with a H-bomb and kills everyone except for the man who was reading inside a vault. While searching for survivors he finds a library and begins to collect books that he will read now that there is "time enough at last" except when he reaches down to pick up a book he drops his thick glasses which he needs in order to read. And then he cries out, "BUT THERE WAS TIME!" and then thats where the emulation of the episode ends.

What they don't tell you though is that the reason he can't read (he tries to read during his job as a bank teller but his manager threatens to fire him) is because his wife WON'T let him read because she wants him to be more social. What the hell is that? Why did this guy marry a woman who would not let him do the thing he enjoys most? It's not even a harmful thing like chronic smoking or alcoholism or some kind of dangerous hobby. IT'S JUST READING! What kind of bitch would not let a man read a book?

But to look at it from a fair prespective, why did that man marry such a bitch? I mean this is probably how it went down during their first date.
Woman: So what do you like to do for fun?
Man: Oh I enjoy to read.
Woman: Fuck that shit.
Man:

I mean once you found out that she did not want her husband to be a reader why did either of them decide that getting married was a good idea.

If you notice from my last few entries I am not writing a lot. I don't really have the energy to write something out that takes longer than 2 seconds to read so in this post you will leave me comments about what I should write about and then I will edit this post with said topic.

So all four of you still reading this site please suggest something for me to write about.

Girls
Erik Trainer suggested to me one day, Shuan why don't you got over there and just make out with that trio of hot women there? I looked over to where he was pointing and sure enough, there were three very hot women. I then decided I would go up to these three women and introduce myself. As I got closer and closer I started becoming more and more nervous and when I get nervous, I start getting gas. As I was approaching them, they all look this way, eyeing who was so bold as to approach them. As I started to utter, "Hi my name is..." I let out a really nice fart. Panicing I yelled "Erik Trainer" and then ran away.

Worry
I worry... ALOT

Rich... and smooth
Pulling out twenties and sweet talking the ladies with random IMs of "YOURE HOT" and "Why am I so drunk?"

James
Slow down

If it wasn't for that horse I'd still be in college.

I've grossly underestimated my shallowness.

Edit: I don't know how to add to this.

I know Mr. Knox would be proud.

And to make this post not completely worthless

I had this dream a week ago about an old crush. I forgot what the situation was... I think we were listening to some "phat beats yo" and then all of a sudden the DJ played a slow song and then I started to dance with her only after about 10 seconds (dream time is fast) she kind of pushes away from me and says something about being too hot.

And then Ninja Pirates came flying down so I was too busy defending myself to figure out what went wrong. But WTF how do you get rejected in your own dream.

CA Thursday After Event was happy time for me. I promised David I would "show" him how to work his new camera. And when I say "show" I mean, "Hey this looks like the button I use for my camera."

David forgot his camera at his apartment in CV so when the meeting ended Le's friend was nice enough to drive us over. Only problem was we had 7 people to fit into a 5 person car. So we squish Le and Julie in the passenger seat and Philip, Me and David sat in the back with Jennifer lying on top of us. Haha it was great. I wish I got a picture of that but Jennifer was resting herself on my backpack.

The After Event was to go eat at Jack Shrimp near the Park Place Edwards. The place was nice looking and all but the food is mighty expensive. Luckily we only had to pay 50% of it. I ordered their Jack Shrimp special (which was 16.95). Basically large shrimp in this cajun sauce. I liked it but didn't think it's worth 17 bucks. 8-9 bucks maybe but not 17 bucks.

I also had to prepare a speech for Chinese today about co-habitation. If this is me reading this in the future. Friday (yesterday) was the day where you somewhat redeemed yourself. Self-congratulations are in order.

Lastly, I have to stop being so sad about stupid girls. I mean I don't even know why I crush on girls. On one hand my mind goes, "You must get a girlfriend" and the other half goes "Hey man, be , don't worry about them girls" (My thoughts aren't filled with emoticons or improper grammar, and I also doubt my mind is split in half like that). I generally feel that I don't really want a girlfriend but just needing to have someone to be with. It's about a week until Valentine's Day. Who knows what will happen within a week but I know that I won't force myself into looking stupid and getting into a relationship if I don't feel comfortable with it, no matter how cute the girl is. Although girls with a nice Chinese accent is quite the sexy.

I'm listening to Schoolhouse Rock right now, "The Shot Heard Around The World," and now "I'm Just A Bill" is coming up. Awesome

Apparently I come off an unhuggable and only deemed worthy of "virtual hugs"

A few years ago in high school, I had the opportunity to observe a guy get turned down by a girl. This is nothing unusual, hell I'm usually the guy that's being turned down. But in this case, I was observing it as it happened.

I'm kind of building up something that's not really worth building up. The gist of it was this. The guy, who I know liked her, started talking to her and asking her casually random "how are you doing" style questions and then told her, "Yeah hey I think I saw you at the mall." To which the girl replied, "Oh, really?" and then just kind of stared off in silence.

At this point I think is where I excused myself to do something else in a, "Wow this is awkward I'm gonna try and leave without being noticed" style that we're all accustomed to from watching The Family Guy. Anything at the time was better than the awkward moment forming in front of me.

I don't even know where I was going with this, maybe that girls are insanely vague about when they're interested or not in a guy. The guy's thinking at this point, "Oh shi I've been busted" while the girl, from anyone's guess, is thinking, "OMG he saw me at the mall that day? I had a big zit that day!" or "Oh dear lord this guy likes me."

Okay sorry, I really don't know where I'm going with this. I guess this is just some anecdote that you can talk about when you're with friends.